This morning, I did not go to school, because last night was a very tired night and I really dun feel like going to school today. When I woke up, I can feel that it is raining outside and my pillow is also wet too. Not because of the rain, is just something else that wet the pillow. Last night, I msn with her, when I type "what ya doin" to her on msn, she replied "making love"

somehow, my tears began to flow and I shiver, I felt that I am like totally losing her to someone else. I never felt this so strong before and somehow because of her joke, I can totally feel that right in my heart. Honestly, I cried until I am so tired and I fall unconcious and sleep on the bed.

Yesterday, I saw her and him walking to cwp. They walked just pass me without even seeing me. I am like 中邪 (possessed) and I began to walk and follow them. They are holding hands and did not even let go all the way, she seems so happy, so cheerful. I follow them without even thinking at all and I cross the road. A car almost hit me but lucky that it did not hit me in the end. It seems so dangerous after I manage to think and recall what I did but during that time, all I can see is her and I just could not think at all. Sorry to all the people that I promise I will take good care of myself, I tried my very best, is just, is my first time seeing them together and I really cannot control myself.

All I say is that, aat least she looks very happy and cheerful when she is with him.
My Everyday Requires You, cherish yourself, take care and may god bless you.