On wednesday night, I went to singapore to help sherina revise about the molecular cell and biology UT. Both of us were at the shop and the shop is awesome where it fills with a lot of clothings and things that are nice. Even with sherina, a pretty gal that is attractive, kind and nice, my heart never really have a second that I can stop thinking of mery.
I discover that no matter what i do in life, my heart never have a moment that I stop missing her.
On that night, when I was on my way back to Malaysia, the moment I step out of singapore customs, it rain so heavily. It took me 45 minutes to finish walking the whole causeway since~~~I am crying in the rain, missing her like a mad man, and i noe her heart is with another guy now, and i cried even more in the rain. I cannot control my feelings and the people around just stare at me as if i am a monster. haiz~~~~missing her, really hurts.
I am willing to miss her a lot a lot, so much even if it cause me to die missing her, i am willing to miss her until the day i die.
I really wish to be the one always by her side. but the person by her side now, is not me~~~and this makes me walk even slower in the rain, just to cry.
I feel that I fell in love to cry in the rain, because no one can really see and know that I am crying since my face is covered with rain water and tears are hidden. Is just like, i can miss her, cry because of her and a lot of other things, is just, i dun want to let her noe, just how that she can at least be carefree, stress free and have fun.
All i would say is, u will always on my mind~~~~i swear to god that i am telling the truth~~~always on my mind~~~~
