Last friday, she told me that she went to a pub and drink with her friends and eventually overnight at a hotel. At first, I am worried that will she be ok and I keep telling myself in my heart "I MUST TRUST HER, I MUST TRUST HER!!!!" I guess to me, I choose and will trust her because a lot of relationships, pure relationships such as friends, family, and even couple need to trust each other fully and totally without asking someone to repay you beck with anything.
A few nights ago, I was chatting with her. Below is the content
She : have u think of go into relationship~ since u took a long time for it?
Me : took a long time for it?
Me : for what?
Me : huh???
Me : I when got take a long time for relationship??
Me : I was never in relationship what
She : ehm~ well~ I mean
She : took a long time
She :in considering it
Me : Oooo
Me : I think to me
She: if I go into a relationship
Me : I will want to make the gal my life partner
Me : where I want to be with her forever
Me : so I guess I wun go into relationship now even if I really love someone
She : Yea
She : this is not a joke
She : think carefully
She : b4 everything
Me : y ask me like that?
Me : huh?
She : no~
She : Since
She : its hard to you to get into relationship mah
She : then summore
She : u r the one
She : easily get emo
She : who noes
She : one day
She : Break
She : then u will suicide
She : then ask u think carefully la
She : wad do u think then?
She : u tot I n wilson goin to break?
She : Lol
She : that's y i asked u?
She : Hahaha
Me : to be true to you, I may be someone that stays by the side of someone I love but say nothing to her about I love her de, just accompany her by her side for a long long time...as long as possible
Me : I guess I may have the chance of suicide since I believe I exist because of the gal I want to protect and the gal I want to love
Me : if the gal dies liao
Me : I will suicide
Me : accompany her so that she wun be alone when she dies
She : lol how do u noe u wil be able to acc her in the neither world??? alot of ppl die in the same day~ will they meet at thr?
She : lol
Me : I will try
Me : I may not know I can acc her a not
Me : but I want to
Me : I want to try and meet her and acc her
Me : I want to try
Me : even it is hard
Me : if I try, I may achieve nothing
Me : if I dun try, I will achieve less than nothing
She : ehm ya
Me : I will do anything and everything for her
Me : including die for or with her
She : I think
She : this is wad a relationship should b too
She : lol
Me : a lot of people say i am stupid and foolish
Me : say if a gal dun like u and with other people then how?
Me : I will tell them
Me : all my eyes see is the one I love and I love only
Me : as long she is hao hao de
Me : am willing to do anything to maintain that
Me : that is y I say
Me : family is responsibility
Me : so when I have money left for them
Me : am free to sacrifice for the one I love
She : ehm
She : well
She : yea
She : I think so
She : but dun dwell too much on it la
Me : I admit I am a selfish person
Me : because I only want a world with me
Me : and her only
Me : others I dun care so much liao
She : haha
She : yea
She : ic
She : lol
She : i think most of ppl feel the same
She : anyway
She : chengwei
She : am goin to turn in
She : lol
She : hahaha
Me : am waiting for that
Me : if u no sleep
Me : i wun offline also
She : =x
Me : want to see u sleep
Me : go sleep
Me : better for ur body
When I was chatting with her, right after she says goodbye and turn in, I cry my heart out the whole night and I wonder does she feels anything towards me ?
I am like why does she need to ask me this? Is she serious towards me? I have no idea. but I understand a fact very clearly, no matter what she wants to do to me, no matter what she thinks of me, no matter what is it, I will stand by her......and I hope is as long as possible....
